Too young to die.

Gosh I am so sorry!

Sun, 10 Jun 2012 23:13:17 -0400

I can’t believe I went this long without updating, but some CRAZY stuff happened and I can’t really explain, but I will be back up and running very very very soon I am so sorry. :)

All of my best.

You should definitely update again soon!! I love this story! :)

Wed, 25 Apr 2012 00:52:12 -0400

When classes let up in the next couple of days I will post a new chapter, I promise. :)

this story is amazing! keep up the good work! :D

Tue, 24 Apr 2012 12:57:20 -0400

Thank you! :)

Chapter Nine

Tue, 24 Apr 2012 12:56:58 -0400

“WHAT!?” Liz screamed into my ear when I answered her phone call. I laughed, it was such a typical Liz reaction.
“Yeah… I can’t believe it either… it all happened so fast. I’m just going with it. I’m freaked out. He’s so great, Liz. I can’t even imagine what I could have done to deserve this,” I said.
“Leila, you are the greatest person I know. Of course you deserve this. I’m just so excited for you OH MY GOD!” She yelled again.
The cool thing about my friendship with Liz was that I had known her since I was 14 years old. We grew up together, went to the same high school, and spent all of our free time together through college when we could. We lived in different towns, but that never stopped us. It could have been months since we talked, but we’d pick up right where we left off. I loved that girl like she was my sister, and I think she might have been in some previous life.
We talked for a couple more minutes and then she had to go because it was getting pretty late in Texas and she had to be up in the morning.
I decided to call my mom to see if she was still awake. Even if she wasn’t, she’d probably wake up to talk to me because that’s how she was. She wouldn’t miss a chance to have a conversation with me if the opportunity presented itself.
“Hello?” She answered.
“Hi mom, sorry I called so late…”
“No no it’s okay, is there something wrong?”
“No not at all, I just wanted to call because I hadn’t in a few days and I wanted to talk.”
“Oh okay well what are you doing?” The tone of her voice went from worry to relief immediately.
“Oh I’m just hanging out with some friends I made. I’m at their band practice right now, actually. They’re inside right now though, I didn’t want to interrupt anything when I called you.” I began.
“Uh huh?”
“Actually, that’s something I was going to tell you about. I just met a guy here who is… really wonderful. I really think you’ll like him.” I said.
“And why is that? Is he your boyfriend?” She asked.
“Yeah, actually. As of today. I know it’s soon but I just figured why not… and he seems to have a pretty solid handle on things…” I added.
“What does he do?”
“He’s… in a band,” I laughed because I knew she’d think that was so typical of me.
“Ah ha, I should have known. Well, he had better be good to you or I will fly there and kick his ass,” She said with no trace of laughter. I knew she wasn’t kidding. I giggled and said that she was allowed to if necessary. I missed my mom, it was really hard to be this far from her. We shared small talk before I told her about tour with him, and she was as skeptical as me. She told me I needed to be careful and were they legitimate about this and where would I be staying and I didn’t need to be running off on my own through the different countries, etc. Usual worries that moms would have if their daughters told them they were running off with their boyfriend and a group of boy musicians to play music. I may as well have been running off with the circus.
I promised her I would be careful and told her about the added bonus of me getting to see her soon. I could tell she was excited about that part, especially because she wouldn’t have to pay for my plane ticket to get there. I could tell she was getting tired now because it was about 1 in the morning in Texas and my mom never stayed up that late. I didn’t want to keep her awake so I told her I would talk to her when I could and that I loved her.
“I love you too, Leila,” She said as we said our goodbyes and good nights and hung up the phone.
I walked back inside Dan’s house and into the living room at all the pictures Dan had hung up in his living room. There were pictures of the band, and Dan’s family everywhere. I saw pictures of him with an older man that I assumed was his dad, and remembered Josh telling me in the park about how Dan lost his dad. I reached out to touch the picture and brush the thin layer of dust off the glass that protected the photo. My heart broke for him. I couldn’t imagine the pain of losing a parent. I swallowed back tears at the thought of it.
I went into the kitchen to throw away my beer can and grab another and then headed back down into the garage. The boys were done practicing now, but they were all seated drinking and shooting the breeze. I went down to sit next to Josh who scooted over to make room for me. He kissed my ear as I giggled.
“Okay, next time, you’re only allowed back over if you bring one of your pretty girlfriends for me,” Max said jokingly.
“Once I find one, I’ll be sure that you’re the first person I contact, deal?” I asked.
Max lifted up his beer can as if to say ‘cheers’ to me and drank.
Matt was still on edge because of Holly, I could tell, so I spoke up.
“Hey, Matt, I’m really sorry Holly couldn’t go on tour. I don’t want you to think I’m trying to run up and replace her because-“
“No Leila, that’s not it. We’d all love to have you come along,” He said interrupting me. I waited a second for him to say something else but then realized that was all. I nodded, half smiling, trying to make him feel better.
“If you’ll all excuse me, I’m going to go try and call her again,” Matt said getting up out of his chair and walking outside.
“I love Holly and Matt together, don’t get me wrong, but that girl has got a temper at times,” Chris said. They laughed and continued drinking, as did Josh and I. We stopped chatting for a minute to listen, but we couldn’t hear Matt out on the phone because he was probably too far away from the thick walls of the garage for us to hear any parts of their conversation. He’d end up telling the boys what Holly said anyways.
After about another fifteen minutes or so of our group conversation I leaned my head over on Josh’s shoulder. I was getting pretty sleepy. Josh brought his mouth over to my ear to speak over the music that was playing in the background.
“Whenever you’re ready to leave, we can go catch a cab to my house, yeah?” He said softly.
“I’m ready when you are,” I nodded once in agreement.
“Leila and I are going to head out now, she’s got work tomorrow. Call you lads tomorrow or something?” He asked. Chris and Max nodded and stopped their conversation to say goodbye to us and we walked outside together.
Matt was sitting on the curb and he looked much less stressed than he was earlier. He noticed us walking down the road to grab a cab and told Josh goodbye and gave me a hug. Once we were in the cab, I fell asleep on Josh’s shoulder.
I was awoken by Josh’s hand rubbing my knee.
“Hello love, we’re here. I want to take you somewhere, let’s get up, come on,” He spoke gently.
I scooted out of the cab as Josh paid the driver and felt slightly more energized due to my power nap than when I had gotten in. Josh took my hand and led me to the back of his house where we walked for five minutes through an area that was densely populated with trees. It was dark and I could barely see anything, but Josh had a hold of my hand.
“Where are we going?” I asked confused.
“I told you I want to show you something. Patience is a virtue, Leila,” He replied.
About a minute later I was able to see through the last couple trees by the light of the moon and we stepped through them onto the bank of a small creek. There was a wooden platform built to our right with cushions laid on top of it. Josh led me over to it and helped me step up.
“What do you think?” He asked, smiling.
“This is incredible,” I managed to say. Looking into the sky, I could see just about every star there was. It made me think of my house in Texas out in the middle of nowhere. The stars here were almost as bright as they were there. Over the slight rustling the leaves made from the breeze, I could hear the current softly rushing the water over the rocks in the creek. Josh was behind me with his hands on my hips. It was pretty chilly, but I was fine with him so close to me.
“I wanted to take you out here at night so you could see how beautiful this is. I come here when I need to think for a while, or when I want to write music. It’s one of my favorite places in the world,” He explained, still while looking up at the sky with me.
“I can see why. It’s so peaceful,” I said, turning to look at his face. He looked down at me with a small smile. He looked even more beautiful in the moonlight and his eyes reflected the water. I couldn’t help but to smile at how ridiculously perfect this was, and I still didn’t know what I could have possibly done to deserve it. He brought his face down to kiss me sweetly. I attempted to reciprocate the gentleness of his lips touch, and I fell deeper into the kiss. His arms around my waist grew tighter, embracing me perfectly. I felt so little in his arms. I brought my hands up to his face, carefully cupping his scruffy jaw. We slowly bent our knees to bring ourselves down to sit on the cushions and our mouths never left each other. Our kisses became shorter like our breath and we found ourselves laying down and holding our bodies close. My hands were entangled in his hair as he ran his hands up and down my back. I wanted him. I needed him closer. I knew that I was attracted to him obviously, I just didn’t know the attraction was this great. Our bodies were like magnets. I had never experienced a pull like this before. It suddenly occurred to me that it didn’t matter how quickly we moved because I didn’t care. All that mattered was right now.
I brought my hands up to unbutton his shirt as I kicked off my shoes. He was shirtless and I was about to unbutton his pants when he broke our kiss.
“Are you.. sure about this?” He hesitated, “I don’t want to do anything that makes you uncomfortable. I want to keep you around. I don’t want to rush you into anything, Leila. Please tell me to stop if you don’t want to do this,” He whispered.
“I want you now, Josh. Don’t worry about it, please kiss me,” I replied with shallow breaths. I didn’t have to say any more for his mouth to eagerly find mine again. I continued where I left off unbuttoning his pants. He was hard as a rock as I pulled his pants down and he kicked them off. I could feel the heat through his boxers and I pulled them down too as he reached under my dress to pull my underwear down. I shrugged off my jean shirt and pulled my dress over my head. We were completely naked now, breathing together under the light of the moon reflected off of the water. I ran my hand down his stomach and Josh let out a sigh through his nose. He flipped me onto my back and hovered over me kissing my mouth and all around my neck. My mouth was open and I was breathing hard already. He came up to my ear and exhaled, and I moaned. With that, I felt all of his hardness come into my body. I inhaled sharply and my eyes opened to see him looking deep into my face still slowly entering and exiting me. I was almost suffocating in his gaze, focusing on our bodies and never taking my eyes off his. My body was in a complete state of euphoria.
I sighed and Josh pressed his lips against mine. His face was warm and his body was tense and focused on coming in and out of me.
“Leila,” he half moaned and half spoke.
“Uuuhhh,” I moaned in reply. I couldn’t speak, but he read my mind and brought one of his hands down to rub my clit making my eyes roll back. I had been with guys before but they weren’t half as good. I could feel myself coming to the edge and my entire body started shaking.
“JOSH, oh my God, Josh, aahhh!” I was almost screaming now. His penis was hitting my spot perfectly every time.
“Mmmm, like that, Lei?” He hit into me again.
“Faster,” I whined.
“Take it slow,” he hit my spot again, “cum for me,” he growled through his teeth.
“D-don’t… OH my God… Don’t. Stop. UNF,” I yelled. My back arched and he brought an arm underneath me to bring my body closer to him.
“Leila, MMM, yeah… oh yeah,” I felt him slow his thrusts and twitch inside of me filling me with his warm liquids. My body shook violently as he tapped my spot one more time and he held me up in his arms as I hit my climax. I had never had an actual orgasm from a man before because all my previous boyfriends sucked in bed, but Josh was some sort of sex God. We clicked.
“You alright?” Josh asked me as I brought my head back down to the cushion we laid on.
“Hmmm,” I sighed and nodded. He kissed my neck and brought a line of kisses up to my mouth.
“You’re perfect,” he smiled against my mouth kissing me still and tracing his fingers down my arms and stomach.

Chapter Eight

Thu, 19 Apr 2012 19:29:15 -0400

He just kept looking at me. I didn’t say anything after he spoke, I just let his hand rest on my cheek like it was.
“You’re just…” He started and turned away. I watched him go pick up his hat off the ground and take a few steps away. He put his hands on the back of his head, almost like he was stretching, and I heard him laugh a little bit. Now I was just confused. He turned back to me and must have seen the look on my face because he immediately started toward me. He wrapped his arms around my waist and gave me a sincerely concerned look before speaking.
“No no no, Leila. It’s not bad. You’re just… unlike anything I’ve ever experienced before. And I barely know you. I don’t want to frighten you off with anything I do,” He moved a piece of hair from my face and his eyes fell to the floor. I took my hand to move his chin up.
“Josh, I know. I’m scared too. Can you imagine coming to an entirely new place with absolutely no idea of the future or what you’re going to end up doing, and knowing NO ONE, and then meeting someone who could have anyone in the world and-“
He interrupted me. “Leila, I don’t want you to go away. Please just- please don’t get frightened and leave. I know this is mad. I know this is absolutely mental, but please understand that these past few days, I have just been on my toes. I never know what to expect with you. I like it. I like you. I don’t want to concern myself with anyone else. Please be the one consistent thing I have going for me right now. Don’t make me beg you.” If it were even possible, his eyes became more blue as he looked into mine.
“I’m not going to stop talking to you. That’s the last thing I want. I want to understand how this is happening right now. Nothing like this ever-“
He interrupted me again. This time he kissed me. It was gentle and almost breezy on my lips. I wanted more when he pulled away.
“I don’t care if nothing like this has ever worked out for you before. It is now, with me. I’ll make sure of it. I told you, I have never met anyone like you, Leila. Opportunities don’t present themselves forever and I’ve never felt more sure of someone. I want you to be with me and only me. I know it’s crazy, but I live a pretty crazy life. I’ll do my absolute damnedest to be everything you need here in London. I can’t say I know how hard it is, but I can try to understand. I want to be the person you come to when you’re having a hard time. I can’t promise it won’t be hard to be with me sometimes but I can promise it’ll be worth it, and I will be there for you. I will show you that this is the only thing I want.”
Before I could reply, he granted my mental wish by kissing me again. I knew this was, like he said, completely mental. I just met this guy, and he’s kissing me and taking me on dates and always wanting to be around me. I can’t say I didn’t like it, but I knew how it always ended. My ex boyfriend was the same way. I would never compare Josh to my ex, predominantly because Josh was better than Aaron in every way possible, but also because Aaron was just a bad guy and I didn’t want to think of Josh that way. But I also didn’t want to lead myself into a situation that would end up screwing me over. Josh was asking me to be with him and only him, and giving me a proposal to be his girlfriend. I was so excited and so nervous at the same time, I thought I’d throw up. I knew that I would be crazy to turn him down, he was nothing less than amazing from what I knew about him. I was such a hopeless romantic that I was almost fainting because he played out the perfect movie romance scene, and then I realized that he was waiting for me to say something.
“Okay,” I said. He looked at me for a second probably waiting for me to say something else and then realized I was done. He threw his arms around me to hug me. He didn’t say anything, and I giggled at the huge smile that was plastered on his face. He let me go and grabbed my hand to walk me back down the hill.
“So, Ms. Leila. What would you like to do now?” He asked as we walked.
“I want… hmmm,” I started, “I want to see more of the city.”
“Yes love. Let’s do that,” He said kissing the top of my head.
We made our way back down the hill and saw families playing in the park with their laughing children, and continued back down the street toward the restaurant we ate lunch at. He walked me down the opposite side of the street showing me shops of all kinds. Some sold vintage clothes, some sold souvenirs, some were convenience stores, some were bars. This street was heavily populated and we felt like just another couple sharing a day together. This time around, nobody recognized him. It could be that they just didn’t approach us, or maybe now that he had sunglasses on it was harder to recognize him. I hated to say I was happy that nobody came up to us, but I was happy that it was just us sharing a day. I loved that he was successful and had fans from all over, but I also loved him holding my hand and not having to let go to autograph things. Maybe I was just being selfish, but I’d certainly have to get used to it. He was a local celebrity.
We walked and shared more about ourselves and the best part was that it just felt natural. Like I was supposed to be there. I liked that part the most because I knew it’d be easy to be with Josh. He was easy to get along with, and not a diva like I’d expect most band guys to be. I had worked with a lot of bands back home because I worked for a music venue and did a lot of booking and putting gigs together, and I definitely had more divas come through than I would have liked.
We came upon one of those double decker buses and hopped on to ride around the city. Josh pointed out the landmarks and cool things that I had to see. I was fascinated by how beautiful the city was. Somehow, I had to get my family and friends out here to visit.
When we had finally reached a stopping point, Josh told me he had band practice with the guys, so that’s where we were heading.
“Are you sure it’s okay that I go with you? I don’t want to interrupt anything. I don’t want to be that girl when you’re trying to have guy time or something,” I said.
“Nonsense, you’re always welcome. I did tell you the lads liked you, yeah? They’d be ecstatic to see you again. You were a good time last time we went out and got really trashed, yeah?” He said with a laugh. I pursed my lips and gave him a disapproving look at his making fun of me, but I laughed too. Of course that was the first impression I’d leave his best friends with. We walked up to the door of Dan’s apartment, but it looked more like a house with a garage attached. I guess it was more of a townhome. It was smaller than a house, but still very nice. It fit a boy in his mid twenties very well. Josh opened the door and held it for me as I stepped inside. I couldn’t see anyone anywhere, but Josh shut the door and led me down a flight of stairs into the garage where I heard boys talking when he opened the door. We descended and everyone shouted.
“Josh! Mate. Glad you made it!” They all exchanged handshakes and pats on the back. Each of them came over to me to hug me and thank me for coming along as well. I immediately felt better and not awkward in the least bit. They made me feel like part of the family.
“Hey Texas, you want something to drink? I’ve got some beer down here in the fridge. If you don’t want that, you’re welcome to go get some water from upstairs or you can take mine,” Dan said offering me his water bottle in his right hand, or a can of beer in his left.
“Oh I’ll just take the beer. You might want the water later. I’ll go get some if I need some,” I took the can and smiled.
“Right on,” he said smiling back.
“So Josh, you didn’t bring one for the rest of us, that’s not very fair, yeah?” Max said gesturing toward me and the guys laughed. I blushed.
“That one there isn’t for me to share, sorry lads. She’s a looker though, eh?” He winked at me and if it were even possible, I was blushing more than before.
“What? You don’t have girl friends? Huh?” Max asked gnawing on some gum.
“Well.. I haven’t really gotten the chance to meet anyone. I haven’t really been out much or worked much since getting here, you know,” I replied.
“Nah, I’m just messing with ya. But I wouldn’t protest if you decided to bring a pretty friend around here,” He said with a laugh. I smiled. Max was so small, the smallest out of the group it seemed, but he was always so full of happiness and energy. He was bouncing off walls all the time. I watched the guys continue to set up their gear in the large garage and Dan was tightening things on his drum set. He was shirtless, as always. If I wasn’t with Josh, I thought Dan was the second cutest most definitely. Chris was tuning his guitar being quiet as usual, only occasionally laughing when one of the guys said something funny. I looked over to see Matt in the corner on the phone.
“Yes, babe. I promise we’ll have lunch or dinner before I leave, yeah?…. Stop, don’t say that… That’s not true, Holly… Okay okay, I have to go, the lads are waiting. We’re supposed to be…” He sighed and pulled the phone away from his ear and hung up. I guessed she ended the call. He looked disappointed and the guys were looking at him now.
“She’s upset about something, I don’t even know. She thinks I’m gonna leave her or something while we’re on tour because she doesn’t think she can go this time,” He raised his hand and let it fall to hit his leg as if he didn’t know what else to do.
“Didn’t you say she was going to handle our merch though? Why can’t she go?” Chris chimed in.
“I don’t know. She can’t get off work or something. She’s upset about that and just taking it out on me, I guess. Let’s just practice, yeah?” Matt said going to pick up his bass.
“But lad, we can’t go out without someone to help us with…” Chris turned and looked at me, and then all the guys turned to look at me.
“Um… oh.. I…” I stammered. Josh walked over to me smiling unnecessarily huge and grabbed my hand as he stood in front of me perched on top of an amp.
“Love. I know you said you wanted to tour and see what the business is like. Come with us.”
“Josh, I know I said that but I, I mean, I need to work and get money…” I started.
“You’ll get paid on this tour. Whoever does merch gets paid by our TM and the label. And you’ll be working everyday, unlike at the PL. They won’t schedule you every day,” He prompted.
“But I…”
“Please,” He leaned down to my level and got close to my face so I could feel his breath. “This is me asking a friend to help us out. You’ll get one meal a day paid for already, you’ll get to see the world like you said you wanted, and… I won’t have to miss you,” He continued.
I already knew my answer.
“I’ll take you by the PL tonight so you can talk to whoever you need to talk to. I’ll come in with you and explain what’s going on and they’ll let you go. They love the Franceschis over there. Elissa plays there all the time. They can’t say no. And we have Texas dates. You can see your family and friends. Your mom will be so happy, won’t she?”
“She wouldn’t necessarily be thrilled that I had come here and met a band boy within days and hopped on a tour with him,” I kind of laughed. He did too, and waited for me to say more. I sighed.
“When do we leave?” I asked. The boys all sighed in relief at my submission and let out a holler of approval, except Matt. Josh picked me up off the amp and I wrapped my legs around his waist as he spun in a circle. He gave me a kiss and put me back down on the amp saying a small ‘thank you for doing this, we appreciate it’ in my ear. I nodded.
“Well now that that’s solved can we just get this going? I need to go find Holly and talk with her,” Matt said running his hands through his hair, clearly frustrated. I didn’t want him to think I was happy to be replacing his girlfriend on the tour, I was clearly skeptical about it, and I wasn’t even sure it’d happen. I had just started my job at the PL and worked one shift and Josh already wanted me to ask off for God knows how long to hop on a bus/plane to follow them on tour. My next shift was tomorrow and I had planned on talking to Travis then, but Josh insisted on taking me by there tonight. Maybe that’d be a better idea anyways because Josh could help me do the talking. I couldn’t lose that job.
The boys all nodded and started their practice session. I sat in the corner on the amp that wasn’t being used and decided to text Liz.
“Just had a date with Josh today, we hung out all day. It was perfect. And then as if it could get any better, he asked me to be his girlfriend. AND THEN their merch person dropped last minute so the guys all asked me to go on the tour and do merch with them. I’ll be back in Texas soon to visit! AHHHH I cannot believe this is happening!” I sent the text and waited for a response as I watched Josh and the boys perform.

no no no no no! I NEED this chapter! Just...just listen to Fransexy's voice and maybe it'll help, okay?

Wed, 18 Apr 2012 17:15:38 -0400

I started writing it and lost inspiration for it kind of. :(

I’m attempting to do that right now!

I lost my inspiration for this chapter.

Tue, 17 Apr 2012 18:32:37 -0400

Give me some ideas to help me get kickstarted!

You followers are the best!

I need a new chapter lol ;)

Sun, 15 Apr 2012 23:28:01 -0400

Comin’ right up!

whens the next chapter babe?

Sun, 15 Apr 2012 23:27:51 -0400

Within the next few days! I’m so sorry it’s been so long, I have been a busy bee.

Oh god, this is so cute. You are a good writer, I like the way you describe the feelings, the places, the gestures and all. I love your fiction. Neeext chapteeer, please!

Sun, 15 Apr 2012 23:27:23 -0400

I’m glad you enjoy it! Next chapter is really soon, I’ve been brainstorming ideas!

you're such a good writer fniuosbgndr

Fri, 06 Apr 2012 22:22:04 -0400

Thank you very much! Working on the next chapter tonight a bit.

Chapter Seven

Tue, 03 Apr 2012 23:54:46 -0400

He led me into a dimly lit Italian restaurant that I couldn’t pronounce the name of, and I didn’t see much of the outside because he was so quick to pull me in. We made our way to the host stand and asked for a table for two. The host grabbed menus and led us to a smaller room off of the big dining room to a table against a wall. All the tables had a small candle in the middle, and a single rose in a vase. This was one of those times I felt massively under dressed. I wish he would have told me he’d be taking me to a higher end restaurant, that would have been useful information. I was about to grab my chair when he stepped in front of me and pulled it out for me. I wasn’t used to this gentleman kind of behavior, especially from such an attractive men. Those are usually the ones I stay away from because they’ve always been jerks.
“Thank you,” I said, blushing. I sat down and he pushed my chair in for me.
“For what? Pulling your chair out? That’s to be expected of a man. Especially for a lady like yourself. Men should be treating you like a princess,” he said. He wasn’t smiling or joking, I hadn’t seen him be serious very often but I imagined that this was one of those times.
“You’d be surprised. I’ve dealt with really… different kind of dudes,” I explained. “No need to talk about that right now though. This place is really nice,” I said dismissing the conversation and looking around in admiration.
“You think so? It’s one of my favorites. Their food is great. I come here a lot with my family when we all go out together. We always sit in this back room with this really charming fellow,” he smiled looking past me. I turned to see a man dressed in a white button up and tie, whom I assumed was our waiter.
“Joshua! So fantastic to see you here,” he exclaimed. You could tell he was distinctly Italian by the way he talked and how his voice boomed in this tiny room. He shook Josh’s hand and gave him a pat on the shoulder before turning to me.
“Bella,” he said softly, picking up my hand off the table and kissing the top of it.
“Anthony, this is Leila. She just moved here from America and today it’s my pleasure to show her around,” Josh said.
“Leila, what a beauty, young lady!” He nodded and smiled in my direction and turned to face Josh. “Lucky gentleman you are. America breeds beautiful young women. Don’t let her get away.” He winked.
“I’m working on that,” he said looking at me and smiling. I blushed.
“Can we get two glasses of your house wine to start out with?” He then asked.
“Whatever you’d like, Mr. Franceschi,” Anthony said leaving the table.
“He’s a good man,” Josh said.
“He seems lovely,” I agreed.
“Tony knows what I get every time, so I think I’ll just stick with my usual. What have you decided on?” He asked looking at my menu.
“I’m thinking I want the manicotti with no meat,” I said not looking up.
“You don’t eat meat?”
I looked up. “No, I’m a vegetarian.”
“Good to know.”
Tony came back to the table with our wine, and we put in the order for our food.
Josh and I talked about a lot at the table, everything from our families to our elementary schools. There was so much to learn about him. He was more interesting than any other guy I had ever dated. It was weird for me to consider us dating, but we acted like it… I just wasn’t going to bring it up. Labels freaked me out, to be honest, and the word girlfriend made me cringe. It was just easier to not label things and to just live them.
We talked about our favorite things, and how I was jealous that he got to travel and see so much of the world. He asked me about how I liked college and why I never quit to be a musician, and I asked him when did he decide to take the risk of not going to school to be a musician. We shared so much about our lives, it was like we had known each other for so long. Our food arrived and I found all my skeptical thoughts about dicing into this disappearing. I had been worried we’d ruin a good thing if we kept seeing so much of each other and taking it as quickly as we had, but I found myself laughing and not caring at the table over lunch with him. It was us, delicious food, and a bottle of wine. His smiling and laughing could have convinced me to jump out of a plane if he’d be there next to me, and I didn’t mind at all.
After we finished eating, we continued to talk and laugh when Anthony came back to check on us.
“How was it?” He asked.
“Brilliant as always,” Josh said finishing the last bit of wine he had in his glass and pouring a bit more. I nodded in agreement because my mouth was full. “Can we get a slice of your famous cheesecake? Leila has to try it. Is that alright?” I swallowed my food and said that I didn’t mind.
“What do you think about falling in love?” He asked after Tony had gone to the kitchen. I was kind of taken by surprise because our conversation had been so light before. He had leaned forward and put his elbows on the table and his body language displayed that he was listening. I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out for a second.
“I think… it’s beautiful. I think it’s such a gift to fall in love with someone who loves you back. But I also think it should be a part of everyday life. It should be like breathing when you fall in love with someone. Something you just naturally do every day without thought. It’s about taking risks. It’s one of the biggest risks you can ever take, to fall in love with someone. But I think it’s the greatest thing about life. Taking risks is one of my favorite things,” I explained.
“I think you are beautiful,” he said. He moved his hands on top of mine so we were holding hands on the top of the table and he smiled that beautiful smile of his. I couldn’t believe I was here with him and he was asking what I thought about falling in love. Saying that he was a simply beautiful human would be like saying that the world is kinda big. It’d be the biggest and most obvious understatement. I felt my cheeks flush red and I didn’t know what to say. I was the worst person ever at taking compliments especially in situations as these. Not that I had ever been on a date with the most attractive English band boy until now.
“I do,” he reassured me when I didn’t say anything. I guess now would be a good time to reply to him.
“Thank you,” I said stupidly with a smile. It was all I could think to say when his bright eyes were staring into me. Tony returned to save me from this awkward accepting of compliments with a plate and cheesecake accompanied by strawberries. It looked like a piece of art that just happened to be edible. Josh and I began to eat it and I was so happy we’d ordered it as soon as it hit my tongue. Easily the best cheesecake I had ever tasted.
We finished dessert and said our goodbyes to Tony who had been beyond wonderful to us, and headed out for our next adventure, which I wasn’t sure of yet. We thanked the host again on our way out, and stepped outside into the sunlight. I almost had forgotten it was still sunny outside because it was so dimly lit in the restaurant. We continued talking as we walked down the road past shops and more restaurants when we were stopped by a group of kids. There was a few boys in the group, but it was mainly girls who were trying to catch Josh’s attention.
“You’re Josh Franceschi of You Me At Six, oh my God!” They all exclaimed. They were all talking sort of talking to each other at the same time and their voices were slightly obnoxious so I tried to tune out what they were saying, but I caught the part when they asked Josh to take a picture. The boys in the group looked less than thrilled. I stepped to the side and one of the boys took a group photo of them. They stood talking to him for a few moments and he was a better sport about it than I was, I could barely stand to hear them talk. I know it sounds mean, but they were just those kind of fans. I supposed if I were him, I would have to get used to it. I had temporarily forgotten he was semi famous around these parts because their band was extremely successful in the UK. He just acted normal, like any real person would, so I had forgotten he had kind of an abnormal career. He chatted with them for a few moments, long enough for me to feel awkward standing there, and one of the girls kept looking over at me patiently waiting. I smiled at her, and she sort of smiled back in a condescending way. It seemed rude but I didn’t think much of it. Maybe she wasn’t meaning for it to come off that way anyways.
“I’m sorry I have to run off on you all like this, but this little lady and I have an afternoon ahead of us. I hope to see you all at a show sometime soon, though. Thanks for the chat, yeah?” Josh said. I looked up to see more of them looking at me now, so I just politely smiled again. They all said bye, thanked him for the photo, and started to disperse when Josh came over to me and offered me his arm. I held on to his bicep and we walked toward what appeared to be a park as some of the girls kept watching in our direction.
“Sorry about that,” he quickly apologized.
“No, no, it’s okay. I forget sometimes that you’re a pretty well known fellow around here, hmm?”
“Yeah sometimes. It can get pretty out of hand sometimes when people just don’t understand that I don’t have a ton of time to take out of my day to stay and talk. I feel bad, don’t get me wrong, I love talking to fans and I love when people come up and tell me my band rules or something. Very flattering, you know? But in situations when I’m out with family or on a date like today, it’s difficult for everyone involved I would guess,” he explained. He called it a date. Okay, so I wasn’t the only one who thought so.
“Please, don’t worry about it. Don’t feel bad. It’s lovely. I love that you like to interact with your fans. It’s a great quality of your character that you’re not some asshole who wants nothing to do with them when you’re not at a press event.”
“Thanks,” he said, taking his free hand and rubbing mine that was attached to his arm.
We had made our way to the park and to a swing set where we both sat on swings next to each other. I hadn’t been to a play ground in quite some time, and it made me miss my little sister back home. Josh must have sensed it because he asked me about it. I told him about how I am such a relationship oriented person, whether it be family relationships, romantic relationships, or purely platonic relationships. Being close to people in some way or another was just important to me. He told me about how Dan lost his dad, and about how hard it was on him to lose someone so close to him because he was the same way with relationships. He said it was hard on the whole band to see Dan so upset by something that huge, and there wasn’t a doubt in my mind that it was. I had never met my real dad and we briefly talked about that, too. We shared things close to our heart, and it was a side of Josh that I knew wasn’t shown all the time. I felt blessed to be able to see it, and even more blessed that it was me specifically who he was sharing it with.
After a while longer of sharing more stories and lightly swinging, Josh said he wanted to take me somewhere special to him. We both got up off the set and walked toward a wooded area across the way. Once we arrived into the trees, I realized there was no trail and we were sort of hiking up the side of this really tall mountain. I loved adventures like these. Josh grabbed my hand as we walked up the hill.
We didn’t say much. I let him lead me up and he held back tree branches for me when I needed to duck underneath one, and warned me to watch my step in some areas. It was clear that he had been up here quite a few times. He knew the territory well. Once we had finally reached the top, I was taken aback by how beautiful the clearing was. There were wildflowers everywhere, and large trees surrounding us on all sides except for one. The side that wasn’t heavily populated with trees was a bit of a cliff, and you could see a lot of the city from it. I was surprised because we didn’t climb the hill for very long and it wasn’t that tall, but you could see vast distances from up here.
“Oh my gosh. This is breath taking,” I gushed.
“Isn’t it?” He agreed. I looked at him and wished that I had words to thank him for the afternoon thus far, but instead I just kissed him. The desire to be closer to him overwhelmed me and our lips pressed together with a hunger that had never been there before. I think we both knew that the sexual tension was high between us. I felt it, that was for sure. His hands wrapped around the small of my back and I pulled his beanie off and tossed it to the ground so I could run my fingers through his messy hair. His tongue played with mine inside of my mouth and I wrapped my arms around his neck now. I didn’t care about anything happening outside of this clearing at the moment. Nothing mattered in the world besides us. What was happening in our world. He was breathing into me, and I was breathing into him, and the air around us was cool but our bodies kept the heat between us. I didn’t need anything right now besides the warmth of his mouth on mine. I didn’t need any air besides the air we shared. I had no time to think about how quickly we moved, and no time to think about how much it scared me that I had just met this boy, yet he was all I needed and all I could think about right now. He was some kind of angel that that gods must have sent to thank me for being so patient with all the idiots I had dealt with in my past. This is what it meant to be so wrapped in a person that you couldn’t imagine anything else being more important.
“Perfect,” he whispered.

You said there'd be another by the weekend! AH I AM DYING HERE.

Mon, 02 Apr 2012 23:30:44 -0400

I know I know I sincerely apologize! I want to make sure it’s perfect for you all. Patience. :)

Okay, now that I got my freak out out of the way... Can I just put Josh in a little box and carry him around with me everywhere? I mean... please? Like, no, but seriously.... Please? ME GUSTA MUCHO HIS ADORABLENESS. He makes me drool I mean... just ugh, he makes me drool so hard. And the fact that he's such a good guy in this story just makes my heart implode ok. Anyway, another amazing chapter! And honestly...who wants to be Leila right now? raises both hands. I can't wait for more :) <3

Sat, 31 Mar 2012 14:44:51 -0400

Hahaha thank you for your great feedback! I will try to have another chapter posted in the next couple of days! :)

When will you have a new chapter love?

Sat, 31 Mar 2012 03:02:12 -0400

Maybe by the end of this weekend if I don’t have too much going on. I just finished chapter 6 and posted, so I have a whole new chapter to start on that I haven’t yet. Soon though!

Chapter Six

Fri, 30 Mar 2012 18:42:43 -0400

“Thank you,” I said hesitantly taking the pills from Josh’s hand. My God my head hurt.
“You’re welcome,” He sort of laughed, “You had a bit of a long night last night, remember? Water is on the table.” He pointed to my left.
Oh my fuck. No, I didn’t remember. I started racking my brain while I swallowed the medicine and winced.
“Um…” I started.
“Oh boy. You were something else!” Josh said with an actual laugh this time.
Holy shit. You’re meaning to tell me we messed around and I was so drunk I couldn’t even remember it?! You have GOT to be kidding me. I must have been horrible. Oh my God. Please kill me.
“Uh… what exactly… what did I do?”
“You had a bit too much to drink. Laughing and carrying on with the lads. They really fancy you, as well,” He stated as he stood up and stretched. “Elissa was going to take you back to your place but she had quite a bit to drink as well. We all had to get cabs home and so you stayed here.” He then walked over to a pile of his clothes and picked them up and tossed them towards a clothes hamper to get them off the floor. “You didn’t want to sleep on the couch because it was ‘cold’ and you were ‘scared’ to be by yourself. Whined about that for a bit, you wanted to sleep with me so of course I didn’t mind.” He said with a wink.
The wink. Oh God. That means… ugh.
“So, we came in here and…” I started and let my words trail off.
“Oh no. No no. Nothing like that.” I exhaled in relief and he continued. “I got you some of my clothes because I wanted to make sure you were comfortable and as soon as I held you, you fell asleep.” He sat back down on the bed next to me and ran his fingers through my hair. I closed my eyes, and it made me temporarily forget about my throbbing skull. “I may have also stole a kiss or five. Don’t sue me. I had a beautiful girl in my bed.”
He moved his hand to graze my cheek and leaned into me. His breath on my mouth was teasing and even though it was only a couple seconds before his lips touched mine, my mouth was almost watering with anticipation. I didn’t want to wait those couple seconds for the warmth of his skin. Finally, I felt the softness of his kiss. His lips were as gentle as I’d expected them to be in those couple seconds before this, and his movement was sure but soft. Not slow, but well paced. He breathed and pressed his mouth against mine again, this time his tongue traced my bottom lip and slowly entered my mouth. My tongue brushed against his in patterns. The kiss couldn’t have been that long, but I couldn’t tell and didn’t care how long it took. I was breathing in his kiss and it was the best air my lungs had tasted. He closed his lips and finished the kiss then opened his eyes.
“I don’t mind,” I spoke into his mouth, “a gentleman stealing a couple kisses. It’s the least I could offer after you took care of me all night.” I pulled back from his face and he smirked.
“I’d do it over again if you asked me to,” He smiled.
“What time is it?” I asked, realizing how tired I really felt.
“Seven a.m.”
“Oh God,” I moaned.
“Let’s sleep some more?” He suggested.
“Mhm,” I replied, hoping to sleep off the headache. I moved my body into his and he was warm. I fit so well next to him and that was the last thing I remember before falling into sleep again.
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I woke up without a concept of what time it was, but the sun was shining on my face. I was particularly happy to see so much sunshine in London, it must have been out of character for such a usually cloudy place.
I looked over to see Josh still sleeping peacefully. He had his arm over me and if I hadn’t been so comfortable, I would have moved because the sun was making it so warm in the room. Every couple seconds I would see his breath cause his body to swell and collapse. His lips were slightly parted and through his adorable nose, his breathing made the smallest of sighs. I tried to move slightly and fall back asleep but when I moved, his beautiful blue eyes opened.
“I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to wake you,” I said softly.
“No, love, it’s alright. Time to face the day, it’s 10:30,” he replied sitting up. “I think I’m going to take you today. I deserve some time alone with you without lads and ruckus,” he said matter of factly. I wasn’t protesting, I was kind of surprised actually.
“You’re going to take me today, huh? Doesn’t sound like I have much of a choice,” I joked. He turned and looked at me disappointed.
“You don’t want to?”
“No, no, I was kidding, Josh,” it almost pained me to see that ridiculously adorable pout on his face.
“That’s what I thought,” he said with a grin. I rolled my eyes and smiled.
“I need to go by my apartment in that case. I need clothes. And to check on my dog. I left her there by herself and I need to make sure she’s doing alright.”
“That’s fine, we’ll go there first.”
Josh went in his bathroom to brush his teeth and get ready, and I looked around his room at everything there was to see, seeing as I had nothing to get ready with. There were band posters on the wall of bands like Brand New and Fall Out Boy. I liked those bands. I stood up to walk around so I could see pictures that he had up in his room. Some were of him and his family, and some were with the guys that I recognized from the band. He had a couple of just him and his sister. They were fantastic siblings and I knew they were very close. I smiled at one of the photos of them together. He had some old vinyl records leaned up against a wall on top of a table in one corner of his room and I thumbed through them seeing classics like Jeff Buckley and Frank Sinatra. I enjoyed that he had at least an appreciation for the older artists. As I walked around, I noticed a picture face down on a dresser so I picked it up to look at it. It was a photo of him kissing the cheek of another girl. She had brown hair and was pretty beautiful. Not strikingly gorgeous like a Victoria’s Secret model or anything, but I thought she was pretty decent looking. I wondered if it was his ex, but I tried not to think too much of it. He had the photo facing down for a reason. Maybe things with them ended on a sour note. I didn’t want to test the waters just yet to ask.
I decided to check my phone and send out a text or two to my mom or Liz. I knew she’d go ballistic when she found out the latest happenings. I typed.
“I went to Josh’s show last night and their band is SOOOO good. Check them out. You Me At Six. I apparently got a little bit too drunk and came back to Josh’s house with him but he’s quite the gentleman. Took care of me and everything. I’m going to spend the day with him now, it’s about 10:45 here. I miss you so so much. I’ll call you later, love you!” I sent it. I sent a text to my mom that was way less detailed (I couldn’t have her freak out on me and demand that I come back to Texas) basically explaining how the show went and telling her I had a day date with Josh that I was super excited about, and I told her I’d call her later too.
After sending the texts, I put on my outfit from last night so I would be ready to catch the cab with Josh and head to my apartment. About this time, he walked out of the bathroom and headed for his dresser.
He was wearing jeans, a tee shirt, and a leather jacket. He grabbed a beanie off the top of the dresser and looked at me. “Ready?” he smiled. I nodded, and we headed out the door.
We walked out of his house and to a main road out of his neighborhood when he flagged down a taxi.
“Hollbrook, please,” he said to the driver. The old man nodded in response and drove off as soon as we got settled in. The drive wasn’t very long at all, I didn’t pay attention to exactly how long it was. No more than 45 minutes, definitely. It was chiller out today. I took note of the weather on an app I had on my phone and the high was 60, and it was sunny. A bit more chilly than I was used to in Texas during this time of year, but I could get used to it. Josh was sitting close to me and his body heat kept me at a comfortable temperature. Content was not enough to describe my current mood. Josh turned to me and looked down at me.
“What would you like to do today?” He asked. I looked up.
“Ummm… I don’t really care. I don’t know what there is to do here though. You’re the expert,” I replied.
“I want to do what you want to do,” he spoke softly, putting his arm around my body and gently rubbing my arm. “This is about you getting to know your new territory. Your wish, within reason of course, is my command.” His smile stretched across his face again.
“I want to get lunch and see what there is to see. There.”
“Perfect. We’ll eat and see today then,” he replied with a kiss on top of my head.

When we arrived at my apartment, I led the way up the stairs. I was nervous that Sunny had destroyed my apartment while I was gone. I knew better than to leave her over night. I just hoped the damage wasn’t catastrophic. I unlocked the door and Sunny was doubling over with excitement as usual. I always loved coming home to that. Luckily, she hadn’t torn anything up.
“Welcome to my poorly decorated apartment,” I said turning to face Josh. “It’s… under decorative construction.”
“I like what you’ve done with the place,” Josh teased. “Which is hardly nothing.”
“Hey, hey, hey. I haven’t been here for long and I’ve been out 90% of the time I have been here!” I said. “You can wait here while I change and do something to this,” I pointed at my head and walked into my room.
I had little to no time to decide what to wear, so I threw on a floral printed dress and my denim over shirt with some cute shoes I had found on sale at Urban. I’m the kind of person who doesn’t have to do much to my hair for it to look alright, so I fixed a couple pieces with my straightener and was pretty much done with it. It was messy, but that was nothing new. I washed my face and brushed my teeth next to get yesterday off of my skin, and then redid my make up so I’d look fresh.
I walked out into the living room to Josh sitting on the couch just waiting.
“Ready now?” He asked.
“Yes.”
“Hungry?”
“Starving.”
“Let’s go then,” he extended his arm. I went to link arms with him when he took my hand from his bicep and put it inside of his own. Our intertwined fingers correlated directly with the biggest goofy smile on my face. I could get used to this.
We went outside and Josh grabbed another taxi and told the driver an intersection of two streets. Within a very short time, we were there. It was a street with shops and restaurants all down it, and he looked pleased as if he built it himself.
“What kind of food you in the mood for? There’s everything here. It’s all authentic,” he beamed.
“Surprise me,” I said, giving him free reign. He was like a kid in a playground.
“Let’s go,” he grabbed my hand and almost pulled me down the street.

Can't wait for the next chapter, love it!

Fri, 30 Mar 2012 18:33:19 -0400

Thank you! It’s almost done. :)

Oh, and just so you know- I'm speechless after reading those five chapters. I love the way you write each sentence and use details. You've definitely caught my attention and made me picture the entire story. Can't wait for more! :)

Mon, 26 Mar 2012 01:23:19 -0400

Thank you so much! I appreciate your admiration. More soon. :)

Just read all five chapters. I love this fic already. Can't wait for the next chapter :D

Mon, 26 Mar 2012 01:22:49 -0400

Thank you! There will be more soon, I’ve got some good ideas to share. :)

YES! FINALLY: a ymas fanfiction. Been looking for one for soooo long! Do you know more ymas fanfics? :)

Mon, 26 Mar 2012 01:22:29 -0400

I haven’t read any others so I wouldn’t know of any by name, but anyone who writes YMAS fanfic that reads this, if you want to post in my ask I will publish it and let everyone know that you write as well!

Fanfic family gotta stick together.